The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

-Robert Frost- 1916

jawapan mudah!

Pekeliling Perkhidmatan Bil. 2/2010
Pindaan Dasar Penangguhan Balik Pelajar-Pelajar Tajaan Kerajaan Di Luar Negara

there goes my answer like! *pfffbt*

new dilemma

this is a usual dilemma of all malaysian final meds around this time of the year!
Staying in Ireland or straight HOME for internship

so, here goes my arguments..
sejak menjejakkan kaki di bumi ireland ni, i mmg ade firm decision yg i akan balik once i dah abes blaja nnt. very firm. tp during summer aritu cam goyah sikit since my mom n dad mention 'tak nak stay kt sane ke?'. hmmm.. tertibe wat aku cam terfikir2 plak.

i rse i nak stay sini sbb nk experience. working overseas. peluang mcm dah dpn mate kan. we're already in the system. mcm senang je nk apply kerja kt sini since i graduate pon dr sini. lgpon i'm still young (n cheerful. haha). eventho mmg membazir mase coz kene repeat gak intern bile balik msia. tp i nk rase experience tuh. boleh ke? waktu young ni la nk experiment2 stuff. nnt bile dah balik msia, sure la i mahu career progress secepat mungkin. takde nye la pulak aku nk take a year off utk pegi australia ke ape ke kan. lg satu reason i rase tak nak balik msia ialah even if i balik pon, i bkn nye boleh kawen. faiz graduate in 2011 iA. so my personal life kire mcm on hold. (mmg on hold dah lame dah. rse mcm frozen in time plak). no point pon balik kan? if i kerja kt sini for 1 year then balik leh kerja same2 ngn faiz. start internship together. cope with stress together2. heee.. owh, tu lg satu. i sgt2 takot i xdpt cope ngn stress kt msia. tahu la kan, kt sini time blaja tak byk sgt that practical side. for sure i kene hentam gile2 bile kerja kt msia nnt. at least if dah kerja sethn kt sini, ade la sikit2 idea kerja sbg doktor tu involve apekemendenye. mmg la akan ade stress start2 kerja tu kan. coz mmg tak reti nk buat kerja. tp i rse team/evnvironment kt sini lebih sesuai drpd di msia. lebih baik blaja n tahu sikit2 kt sini rather than balik n terkejut beruk ngn keadaan bekerja. hmmm.. pening3. psl social support plak, ermm.. takot jugak if i decided utk kerja kt sini, then takde kwn. as in malaysian. huuu.. susah la jugak tu. evntho i am quite confident yg i ni agak independent. eh cop cop. mungkin tak. ntah la. ok tak tahu. social life outside hospital pule.. hurmmm.. msia is for sure wayyy better kan. ade kwn2 outside medicine (esp my gf) n ade family. i've been away for a long time. 5 years isnt short. but adding 1 year wouldn't make such a big difference kan? n ade jugak la social life if i rajen join2 party ngn omputih2 sekalian.

hurmm.. there's no mention about money. coz i don't think thats a factor for me. i rse kerja kt msia or kerja kt sini same je. ape2 i dpt mmg i akan spend. tu for sure! ehehehe.. im very bad at tabung menabung nih. its just not my thing. heheheh.. saving utk kawen is definitely not my priority. sbbnye 1) kawen lame lg. 2) nk kawen gune duit mak bapak je. i kan anak sulung. haruslah gune duit mak bapak. muehehehee.. pasal location plak, if kerja kt sini dkt ngn london. boleh shopping sesuke ati. dkt gak ngn negara2 europe yg lain. tp kalo takde kwn, xgune jugak kan? takde la plak aku nk g jalan sorg2. kt msia pon best je. boleh shopping kt jalan TAR. ngeee.. ade byk tudung yg tidak boleh didapati di sini. heheheh.. tp if dah kt msia, nk jln ke luar dr msia tu sgt2 unlikely lah. nk kuar dr semenanjung pon cm unlikely jugak. huhu.. inikan pula nk ke eropah. pasal weather pulak, msia panas. duhhh sume org pon tahu!! tp tu bkn point aku. point aku ialah i xsuke weather irish! ok i suke sejuk. tp tak suke hujan die. n i dont like winter too. wet n windy. yucks. sgt depressing okey! ape lagi faktor ek. ok food. yg ni tak yah fikir kot. msia mmg menang. tanpe tandingan. ahahaha

last but not least, by LAW i mmg kene balik n buat my intership kt msia ponnn!!!~ ahahaha.. penat je fikir segala bagai, if i jenis skema ikut law --> mmg akan balik! tp i tak la skema sgt kan? kan kan?? eh ke ye? ye ek? ye ke tak??

one thing that i haven't done is asking my parents about it. well, 2 things actually. ask guidance from Allah. patut buat solat istikharah. huu..

reply utk kamu

aku terbace comment ni kat facebook.. tak tahu la bile comment ni. tp ade name aku!

"aku nak buat luahan terdalam nie.. aku dah takmo ok skolah situ lepas f3 tp atas sbb2 tertentu aku tak pindah gak, aku tak rajin masuk kelas time f4 sbb dah takde ati blaja, tak paham satu ape pon cikgu ajar, aku suke jual2 dkt tepi aspuri tu ngan g camping kadet remaja aje dl.. and suke bergayut and chatting ngan si 'tut' itu.. ahaha.. aku kantoi main game dlm blek komputer dgn cikgu raudhah, pastu die interview pengawas and aku dah rejected. aku sgt222 pelik cmane aku ley jadik KA, and otomatik jadik PKA.. tak ke bangang tu? korg taktaw pe rasa aku time tu, aku tolak tp ade yg tak kasik, mls nak ckp bnyk aku amik je.. aku benci nak marah2 korang tp if tak wat keje btol2 warden selambe je nak marah.. siap ckp aku lembek la itu ini.. dah aku tak suke cmane aku nak wat keje dgn btol kan..tp aku tak pandai tipu2 so tppaksala wat dlm tepaksa.. aku tak pergi rombongan EXCO sbb aku tak rasa menarik pon.. aku benci aziah maki aku (ahahah).. aku benci lim payat aisyah mashudan, tamo kawan aku.. haha aku tak suke tak dpt jadik diri aku sbnr mcm aku buat time2 f1,2 n f3.. aku benci aku tak pnh lulus add math sibbek dpt b3 time spm..sampai aku rasa nak pindah skola high skool ahaha mcm boley.. aku benci ape yg aku buat kat skola sampai aku tak join pape xtvt and organisation pon kat ukm.. jadik anti sosial mcm baya. aku benci bnyk bende dlm hidup aku and nasib baek aku boleh gembire dengan adanya korang semula dgn aku sekarang.. korg taktau cmane aku berusaha nak amik ati korang blk.. dan sekarang jgn nak ungkit bende2 lama lagi sbb sape soh korang tak bantah time aku dpt jadik KA? g salahkan senior kite apsal suggest nama aku jadik KA..SORRY KORANG.. DULU KAN MASIH TAK MATANG.. aku pon tak jht dgn korg g kan? haishh siap la nnt aku jumpa korg aku ikat smer tgn korang!"

ermm ermm.. i would like to say this. i am truly sorry for what i've done to you. like you said, kite sume tak matang mase tu. plus, i was a very expressive person. actually, i still am. but trust me, i get over things very easily. once i dah lepaskan, i never hold grudge on it. ever! and please don't hate me forever coz i used to maki2 u before. not that it will affect me in any way if u still do ;) but to make things easier and smoother, lets just be friend and love each other. hee..

ok part ni aku malu sket nk tulis. so aku kecikkan tulisan. i have to say, aku sayang je kat ko. tak perlu la nk amek2 hati aku. coz aku mmg jenis penyayang. ahahahhaa.. ok part last tu tipu :P

plan utk buat party arosa

mahu pegi ini.. tp oopss.. terbgn lambat
lgpon nurul mahu pergi ke south doc di mallow
tiada rakan mahu pergi.
niki tidak pergi coz masalah something kt rumah die
huu.. tdo je lah. ehehehe


last week mahu pergi yg ini sbnrnye..
tp bgn lambat jugak!!
adoii.. aziahhhh..
salah aku ke salah organizer sbb buat pagi2??
tp aku berniat utk pergi tau sbnrnye
huuu.. cian aku tak dpt pegiii.. =(


ok tuka cite!
malam ni arosa nk buat partyyyy
sempena ape? ermm.. ntah ek
sbb kak ila dah lame tak balik cork maybe?
huhuhuhu...
tugas saye ialah membuat soup!!
saye dah decide utk buat asparagus veloute

menu2 yg lain ialah:
starter - soup td tu la. ye kerja aku wat starter jek ;)
main course - lamb something2, potato gratin, cous cous
dessert - choc mouse + maybe marshmallow and choc fondue
air - seperti biase sirap bandung ais azia yg super sedap! ahaha

PS: gmba2 tidak akan di post sbb of course la party kami berseksi meksi!!~